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1. 01Summer memories

   『地上絵』橋爪志保

   ビルをつくるひとはやる気があるんだなあ　悲しい時はジャンプしてみる

   Jumping, to get just a little higher for a moment. I think it cheers you up.

2. 02Magic

   『今日は誰にも愛されたかった』岡野大嗣、木下龍也、谷川俊太郎

   倒れないようにケーキを持ち運ぶとき人間はわずかに天使

   Carrying a birthday cake, the pure, earnest effort of not dropping it. Those short twenty-odd seconds of thinking only about that one person feel like an angel to me.

3. 03Warmth

   『夜空はいつでも最高密度の青色だ』最果タヒ

   都会を好きになった瞬間、自殺したようなものだよ。塗った爪の色を、きみの体の内側に探したってみつかりやしない。夜空はいつでも最高密度の青色だ。きみがかわいそうだと思っているきみ自身を、誰も愛さない間、きみはきっと世界を嫌いでいい。そしてだからこそ、この星に、恋愛なんてものはない。

   Shibuya, Shinjuku. You can feel the loneliness, despair and emptiness of living in an exclusionary city. The way people keep living hard while finding life difficult is compelling; it's a work I keep going back to. It was also made into a film, and the shots of red aircraft warning lights blinking, as if seen through the windows of high-rises, are superb. I rented it at the now-closed Shinjuku TSUTAYA, saw it at Shinjuku Piccadilly, bought the DVD and watched it many times. It's an important work to me.

4. 04Looking back on 2022!

   『美しいからだよ』水沢なお

   花はきれいじゃないといい殴られたきみは忘れられた稜線をなぞる傾きかけた街のような目をするそれなのに自分のことさえ助けようとしない助けることができないともすればそれは美しい美しいからだそのきみが美しいからだよ

   A book with an adolescent sensibility, intoxicated poems and a daydream-like air. I've always found beauty in inorganic things, which I think comes from a world-weary streak in me. The cover is by the illustrator Minahamu, which is another draw. I'm pulled in by its coming-of-age literary feel, like Kei Nakazawa, and by characters with fragile, lonely eyes and a shadow about them. My favourites among Minahamu's works are Yume ka Utsutsu ka, Haru no Furakoko, Seikatsu to Iiwake and Marine Resort Minamikaze.

5. 05New Year

   『玄関の覗き穴から差してくる光のように生まれたはずだ』岡野大嗣、木下龍也

   Googleに聞いてもヒット0だったからまだ神にしかバレてない

   Most of my favourite places and things don't come up in an iPhone search. That's something free and calm. The cover reminds me of the view of Setagaya from my room after waking up past noon. The view from an apartment block, the curtains, what's outside the window: I find them very appealing. I think of smell as belonging to the realm of literature, and these poems also carry the smell of summer.

6. 06Valentine's Day

   『ロマンチック・ラブ・イデオロギー』手塚美楽

   家出少女みたいな謎のメンタリティ２人でいると文字化けしそうだ

   まだ寝てる？運命の人、聞こえてる？今桜上水だけどなんかいる？

   食べるのが遅い喋るのが上手いフィッシュマンズの歌詞みたいな人

   The word choice, wrapped in layer upon layer of metaphor, stays with you. The musicians who appear in the poems are appealing too. I'm drawn to its subculture-yet-everyday viewpoint, like Kiriko Nananan or Kyoko Okazaki. A ruruMu scarf, a KILL REMOTE sweatshirt, a baggy KEISUKE KANDA duffle coat, a BALMUNG neoprene big hoodie, a CHROMA dystopia coat, Seiko Oomori's album Zettai Shojo, Setagaya, Suginami, Nakano, Nerima. Mira Tezuka's poems make me think of these things and places. The words feel like ones Tezuka actually said or heard, and the collection is raw and full of everyday life.

7. 07Graduation

   『花は泡、そこにいたって会いたいよ』初谷むい

   エスカレーター、えすかと略しどこまでも　えすか、あなたの夜を思うよ

   大人にはなりきれなくてコンビニを出てすぐ買ったグミをひらいた

   The cover is by the illustrator Tomoko Oshima, which is another draw. Her characters are pale girls with dead eyes, a shadow about them and an air of misfortune. The theme focuses on girls like film extras, with the lived-in feel of a one-metre radius. A fragile, faint, almost-vanishing, always somewhat lonely, pale, thin, low-temperature mood. It reminds me of Machida, Tokyo. As a student I often went to her events, like the solo show Parco demo Roiho demo Rabuho demo ii yo at GALLERY X BY PARCO in Shibuya and a signing at Village Vanguard. Hatsutani's poems are fleeting and full of everyday life. The superb, one-of-a-kind word choice and subculture feel are what define them.

8. 08Spring

   『まばたきで消えていく』藤宮若菜

   いつまでも少女でいてとコンタクトレンズを踏みつぶすような祈り

   幸せな気持ちをこんなに集めてもまだ死にたいねさみしい朝だ

   花火振りまわして焦げた銀杏BOYZのTシャツつぎの夏へと運ぶ

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   A cover like a faint watercolour landscape, like transparent fantasy literature. Pure, a daydream. A wish to die and an attachment to girlhood. Inorganic, aesthetic fragility. Poems like shoegaze. Fujimiya's poems remind me of 2010s Twitter and music like the Zankyo Record label. They remind me of people with a dreamy countercultural, yume-kawaii touch: Kanashinami, Momoko Midorikawa, Nikamokyu, Makiron, Rinahamu. The obi carries a comment from Haruka to Miyuki, which is another draw. I'm drawn to its white-clover beauty and quiet, faint word choice. The mood is wistful nostalgia, intoxication, weightlessness, pent-up gloom and loss. Like staring at the light outside in mourning clothes in summer until you stop seeing its colour, then looking away and seeing an afterimage in the opposite colour. The loneliness of an amusement park after closing.

9. 09Unwinding

   『エモーショナルキリン大全』上篠翔

   新宿へ着くまで何度死にたいと思っても着く小田急線は

   ミラクルな魔法少女になる枝は新百合ヶ丘のKALDIにある

   ずいぶんと長いあとがき読み終えて登戸にまだ溜まっている

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   It's full of poems set along the Odakyu Line, which I love. The air of Heisei and the 2010s that will never come back, and the fleetingness of places. Poems marked by nihilism and subculture. The chlorine taste of Shinjuku tap water. A high school in Komae, American Spirit menthol lights, Machida, Makura Izumi's Candle, Tomoko Oshima's illustrations, an M-51 parka, Yukiko Goto's Mizuiro no Heya, Kengo Hanazawa's I Am a Hero, Hasami Group's LADY, Inio Asano's Goodnight Punpun and so on come to mind. I think it suits people who spent their sensitive years in the 2010s.

10. 10Rain

    『いっさいすべての春』久保泉

    夏はぜんぶ僕があげる、フジロックよりビアガーデンよりビーチより、 君と家のベランダで線香花火をしよう、そこから見えるマンション、どれに住みたいとおもう、なんて話して、たまに銭湯行って帰り道ビール片手にそのマンションに忍び込んでみようよ、君がいればなんだって物語がはじまるんだ

    The obi carries a comment from Makoto Toda, memorable from Miss iD, which is another draw. I'm drawn to its elegant, gentle word choice, like a delphinium flower. It reminds me of otonasium, a Futatsukukuri sailor-tie dress, Ririnka, Manami Usamaru's photobook Kitto Zenbu Daijobu ni Naru, Takuro Ishizashi's Kimi ga Sumu Machi e and so on. I think it's a collection as warm as if it were hugging spring.

11. 11Tanabata

    『ねむりたりない』櫻井朋子

    都庁/痛みさえ光ってしまう新宿は空室だらけの愛でまぶしい、 アパートのどこかの窓で風鈴が今年も夏を測り始める、 どの夏もどこかで続いていたらいいカットグラスを両手ですすぐ、 吊り革を掴みそこねてよろめけば快速列車に零れだす夏、 スプーンを洗うときより少しだけフォークを洗う水はつめたい、 いちご味といちごはちがう叫べない夢のほとりを走りつづける、 好かれたいというより許されたかったのお蕎麦屋さんのカレーみたいに、 「秒針の音が気にならない夜は初めて

    Poems of longing and yearning, playful word choice, a sense of relief and resignation. The air after watching the films of Kiriko Nananan's blue and Pumpkin and Mayonnaise. Tomoko Sakurai's poems are marked by delicacy and loneliness. I think it's a collection that suits July, August, summer.

12. 12Summer holidays

    『きみを嫌いな奴はクズだよ』木下龍也

    二階堂ふみと四階堂ふみと六階堂ふみふみふみ

    Googleの昼寝によって新着のニュースの欄に寝言がならぶ

    必要以上に破られないためのバンドエイドの箱の点線

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    Poems that are at once full of loss and pop. I think it's a book packed with poems of an impersonal, cool detachment. An approach that holds the actual and the unreal together. I think it suits reading in summer in mourning clothes.

13. 132023, our first anniversary!

    『青を泳ぐ。』杉谷麻衣

    保健室の南のまどからだけ見える三時間目の海が好きです

    制服の下に君との夏かくし地理の時間は潮風を聴く

    教室に向かう廊下は今日もまた私が歩くときだけ螺旋

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    Cool, clean, innocent, sharp poems. The feelings of a schoolgirl who doesn't fit in and keeps her distance. Poems with the beauty and purity of the first time you touch a Deskel. Mai's poems are intoxicating, with a delicate transparency and faint word choice that stay with you. These Calpis Water poems suit reading on the way home from school, after class, in April.

14. 14Autumn appetite

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    紀伊國屋書店の二階から見えるメリーゴーランドを傘と呼ぶ

    虚しいという感情は感情のなかでもっとも雪に似ている

    ガブリエル。IKEAのサメにきみが名を与えるガブリ(噛むからね)エル

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    Many of the poems are set in Shibuya and Ogikubo. Delicate poems like short stories. The proper nouns in the book are charming. A femme fatale air. Nishi-Ogikubo is a place I feel very strongly about. It reminds me of a restaurant in Nishi-Ogi called Mushibako. It also brings to mind Hisashi Eguchi and others. A book that suits this season, when you can live a fictional romance.

15. 15School festival

    『コンビニに生まれかわってしまっても』西村曜

    サブウェイの店長として一生を終える他人がとてもいとしい

    百均で迷子になってもこれぜんぶ百円だっておもって走れ

    い・ろ・は・すに色はないのに味のする　これは梨味　そういうものと

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    The poems about convenience stores, variety shops and fast-food places stay with you. The poems of flat, inorganic conversations at the konbini are superb. Delicate, thin, absurd poems. Best read on a late-night trip to the konbini in the cold of November or December.

16. 16Christmas

    『煮汁』戸田響子

    エンジェルを止めてくださいエンジンの見間違いだった地下駐車場

    郵便がカタンと届き昼寝から浮上してゆく振り向けば海

    塀越しによくしゃべってた隣人の腰から下が人間じゃない

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    Marked by the particular air of literary fiction. The occult side of the poems reminds me of BURST, the counterculture magazine Core Magazine published from 1995 to 2005, and of Minoru Torihada and Keroppy Maeda. Ko Machida wrote the obi, which is appealing and convincing. The delusion, intoxication, euphoria and obsession recall Ramo Nakajima and Gensho Ishimaru. I think it also suits readers of the occult news site TOCANA, Gekkan Cyzo and the occult monthly Mu.

17. 17New Year

    『適切な世界の適切ならざる私』文月悠光

    卒業式に着たブラウスを懐かしく広げてみると袖口に光るものがある

    スカート丈を上げるため、女子トイレの個室で毎朝行われる儀式がある。幾度が折ったうえ、すそを引っ張る手首は矛盾。揺れるギンガムチェックが私の太ももから消えない

    紺色のカーディガンの毛玉をつまむ度、忘れていく。血を流しても、たちまち暗くふさがって生まれ落ちる前の入口に立ちかえっている

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    The poems of what a girl lives through between 14 and 17 are superb. Science room, nurse's office, art room, after school, the principal's office, uniforms, textbooks, leather shoes, graduation, spaces: through all these subjects the young body's sensitive, painful wavering becomes a grotesque, menhera-literature schoolgirl's days turned unreal in verse, with an air of self-consciousness, confinement, alienation and sorrow. The fleeting take of a gloomy teenage schoolgirl steeped in literature stays with you. Poems that bring back memories of wearing a school uniform. I think it suits people who find life hard.

18. 18Setsubun

    『味のない水が美味しい』輪湖

    夜ぎの濡れた制服ベランダで怪物みたいな夜の街灯

    深海で君に触れたら泡になる夢のなかでも口紅溶けて

    夏雲に覆われていて天国の距離まで遠くなっていく空

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    Poems of gentle thinking. It feels like watching one of Tsugumi Matsunaga's faint music videos. It reminds me of songs like Hirone's Calorie Mate and Tsukushi's rasolpa no Sunairo. A slow, aesthetic, slightly empty mood like clear water that is calm and soothing. Refreshing like lemon squash, with a faint nostalgic air. I think it suits people who like the faint, calm air of Tennendai.

19. 19In-flight meal

    『硝子のボレット』田丸まひる

    じゃあ非常階段に来て。眼裏の雪のすべてが燃えきるまでに

    スカートの奥の夕陽を裏返すような行為をうまくできない

    けれどまた笑ってほしい今朝虹が出ていたことを告げる回診

    6 more in the original

    I like the contents entry Natsu no Karute on page 96. I also like Calpis ga Amasugiru on page 44. The air of a hospital room. Poems like nurses and patients, like prescriptions. I think it suits people bored in a hospital room.

20. 20III

    『ちるとしふと』千原こはぎ

    存在をときどき確かめたくなって深夜ひとりで立つ自動ドア

    おかえりと言う人のない毎日にまたひとつ増えてしまうぺんぎん

    2番線ホームに緑色をした憂鬱がまた到着します

    6 more in the original

    Poems with an air of loss, confinement and loneliness. Poems that never lose their composure. I think it suits people who feel lonely.